Patient 4


Deborah,

It was really great getting to see you when I came in for my 3 month checkup. Since you were busy, I didn't think I was going to get to, and I was a bit bummed. Then you sprung up when you saw me! That really made me feel good :-) Thank you. Anyway, we didn't get much time to chat, and the girls said you all love email, so I thought I would send you one with an update.

As I mentioned in my last email to you, this surgery has really changed my life. I've been full-time now for almost 4 months now, and every day I feel more and more like myself, and less and less like a tranny. I haven't felt at all male since the day of the surgery, so thank you!!! I pass completely in public, and am constantly getting oggled, hit on, etc. My height gets me some looks, but who cares - they're just jealous haha. I am SO happy, it's really amazing.

The hormones have taken really really well. I have hips now, and I'm getting a bum. Both have caused me to start having to really watch my diet, which is fine. My skin has softened quite a bit, and my body hair has thinned, softened, become blonde and like fuzz. My pores have closed up, my acne cleared quite a bit, and my hair has softened. Also, some of my receding areas are starting to grow back. And my breasts... yeah, those are working haha. I still wear my forms, but I'm about an A cup already.

As the swelling has slowly gone down from the surgery, I've struggled with concerns and feelings that the boy was coming back a bit. I mean, my face was thinning out from the loss of swelling, and since no work was done on the lower half of my face, I could totally see my old self there, and I hated it! Everyone else has been telling me how much more feminine I look, every time they see me. And to some extent I believe them... but there's been that nagging doubt, that question of whether they are inflating things, you know? And then there are the snapshots my friends take - maybe 1 out of 25 I like, and none do I love. Part of the problem I have is my hair, and having to hide those receding areas. I can make it look decent, and I get a lot of compliments, but I just don't like it.

So, I booked myself an appt with Glamour Shots for last Sunday. Are you familiar with them? They did my makeup (pretty much the same way I do it) and curled my hair just with a curling iron (I'm trying to teach myself that now!), and voila! I loved the hair!!! OMG!!!! The photo shoot was SO fun. They actually thought I had done it a lot - they said I was a natural. But it was my first time!! And I don't believe they had any idea at all about my past. It was so validating!!! While they downloaded the pictures for viewing, I walked the huge mall, full of people. Again, no looks at all!!

And the pictures!!! Amazing!! I almost cried when I saw them. I had so much trouble picking out the ones I had to not buy, and I ended up spending far too much. Part of my package included a DVD of all the pictures from the shoot. I've pulled the pics out, and attached them for you to view and show the rest of the staff, if you'd like to. They are not touched up - straight off the camera - and they are not great quality, in order to prevent stealing of them haha, but they still look awesome to me. This was exactly the confidence boost I needed. Now I can finally see what others have been seeing.

I can't thank you all enough for everything. Please give Dr. Beck another big hug for me. I have been referring people to you left and right. I've actually lost count of how many people have come to you in my name haha. Lori and I just worked to gather to convince a Lisa from the UK to come over - I believe she already has an appt with you! I will continue to spread the joy you've brought into my life.

Thanks you thank you thank you,